Friday, July 26, 2013

Five Minutes: Broken

Each week Gypsy Mama chooses a word to write about for five minutes. No editing, stream of consciousness. Today's word is: Broken.

Ready. Set. Write.

My laptop just celebrated it's fifth birthday, which is ancient for a Windows laptop.  After the acquisition of my iPad last Fall, my laptop has been used very little, so having a soon-to-be obsolete laptop wasn't that distressing....until I started school July 1.  

In my MBA program, I have to submit assignments online and although the internet surfing still works (albeit via Safari on a Windows system), using the Office applications and even the USB port is troublesome.  It's broken and I'm in denial.  Microsoft Word crashes every time I save a document...and the other night it simply locked up my laptop to the point of restart.  Even the USB port is getting persnickety.  I save all my work on a flash drive (for the reasons stated earlier) yet even the ports are broken and tired.  My cheap self now needs to invest in a laptop so I can be equipped for this journey of school.

Silly me grieves over broken things like this.  I bought this laptop soon after I bought my last car, Bluebelle, which I love.  It was a tough purchase because it seemed everything was broken and needed replacing.  Now, my car is going strong, and my laptop needs to be put to rest.  Nothing I can do can fix the broken.

I'm so thankful that I can come to my Creator broken and know that He won't give up on me.  I may be broken, battered, scarred and discouraged, but He makes all things new.  When I crash, He protects me.  When I lock up, He surrounds me with his arms and I relax in the comfort of His Love.  And when I simply can't plug in to be recharged, His Holy Spirit intercedes for me in ways and words I can't express.  

Being broken doesn't mean I'm banished.  I'm loved. 

3 comments:

Linds said...

That last line is beautiful! Thank you for sharing.

Anita Ojeda said...

I'm dropping in from FMF--I have no idea how to find the normal 'last person to post before you did' when it's on Facebook, so I'm randomly dropping in all over :). I love the last line. Isn't it funny how God uses our brokenness more than our wholeness to reach out to other people?

Stephanie said...

Beautiful! What an interesting comparison, love it! I too get sentimental over things like that; I still own my laptop from college and it's 10 years old. =) The ethernet and phone cord jacks are broken, the CD drive doesn't work, it's been reformatted more times than I care to recall, but I just can't bring myself to get rid of it. Thanks for sharing!